The Story Of a Once Happy Kid

11th January 2012

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Check Mate, and Failure

Today seemed to have its good traits yet, behind it all it was full of my on going stress, pain, urges, and hate. I chose to wear a smile, to actually try to be happy and be fun to be around, but truthfully I don’t even know why. Every time I do try this I find my self making a fool out of my self, make a disgrace of my self, followed by me being alone once again. I feel as if every time I try to fit in to this society, this world that I am just thrown I big fat rejection. Did anyone make even the slightest effort to learn about me when I arrived at this school, nope not at all. I have tried talking to kids, tried being their friends, like hang out with them and such, but I feel as if i annoy them. Ending up being blown off as we have made plans to hang out for the weekend and then suddenly at the last second i end up alone as usual. I give up, I rather be secluded into a small box where I would not disturb any one’s lives. This plan has turned in an epic failure, I guess it just was never even meant to be.

New plan, Speak less, and use something to drown out this pain once more.